Yes, somehow my professional life and my emotional life collided, as they do, sometimes. It is hardly to say that I have two different life, because business, finding meaning in my career life is still important to me.
I've been spending a lot of time in cooking, photography, travelling. They are my hobbies. They are all nice. I do sometimes think of doing it seriously. But probably not, I'd prefer to do them in the weekend, or only in my spare time.
The company and the department has had a lot of change. I still stay. I talk with my colleague, a closed one. He said imagine the big picture, and the role that my company plays in it. Yet, it does play a role. So it still makes sense to stay. I like the fast-changing industries, I always think so since I realized it.
It was occuring to me one night, precisely in the early morning, at 2p.m. in the weekend, that if I had become 'old' or not. 'Old' to me means that you compromise, that you live looking at good things to forget about what you don't like. 'Old' mean that you don't have the urge to change, that you have to learn to be satisfied with life. And luckily (or unluckily) I haven't turned old yet.
One thing I told myself that night. If you've ever become a manager, or someone who can make decision in your organization, be sure to select the right people. One good person won't be good if he/ she doesn't fit in the culture of that organization. And that, giving people space, ideas, motivation. Try to do that, even before you become a manager.
random walk during my journey
